In My Dreams
by Demi en     More by this Writer
A poem describing Mirai Trunks’s grief after Mirai Gohan’s death…and Mirai Gohan’s own feelings as he watches from the afterlife.

Each part is from either Mirai Gohan or Mirai Trunks’ point of view – beginning with Mirai Trunks. I used a few songs from Evanescence and Loreena McKennitt as inspiration for this…
Deathfic

In my dreams, there you belong,
In all the starry nights, the moon you were.
And if I cry for you, you’ll be back.

Above the dreams, I’m alone.
Something is wrong…
World’s just so cold.

Before the dawn I miss you,
But I must go on.
And so the show goes on and on…

It is your place which I’ve taken.
Can you hear me now?
I don’t want to be their hero.

But I must.
Do you miss me as well?
The dawn is cold when alone.

Whispered voices at my ear,
Though I’ve tried to forget,
Always remind me of you.

And I’m sorry, my lost friend.
Cause friend you were,
Never dared to be more.

Always waited.
The fulfillment of unspoken promises,
The dark angel claimed you too soon.

Sorry that I can’t forget.
For not being brave enough,
For not making you proud.

Sorry, for wasting your sacrifice, on me.
You trusted me – trusted a shadow?
And now a shadow I am.

The one that died then is me.
And now only in dreams I live,
While you soar in the eternal skies.

I’ve lost my hope.
Will you take me home?
Look for me at the winter’s dusk?

It’s cold – I miss the sun.
Their hope they want me to be,
But I have no courage left.

I used to hate the ocean,
Until you told me,
You could see it in my eyes.

So simple it could be.
Face them, end my torture.
You would never approve.

Strings of diamonds join the ocean.
Blood of a broken heart.
Wasting away into your absence.

Endless grayish blue, angry clouds.
I used to be afraid, and then you’d come.
It could all end here and now.

In my dreams, there you belong.
In all the starry nights, the moon you were.
And if I cry for you, you’ll be back.

***

Alone again he is,
My absence tough for him.
And I can only wish…

When the sun joins the moon,
When teardrops rain become,
When the ocean floods the skies.

Then I’ll come to thee.
I promised you, I stayed here.
So hard to watch, but not to touch.

A cursed ghost, a soul lost,
Can you remember me?
For you I have become a shadow.

Watching you, loving you,
When will the shadows disappear?
Don’t break now, be brave for me.

So hard, too young.
Don’t cry for me,
Don’t cry for us.

Let the foam of the tide
Wash your pain away.
Just a day longer, be strong for me.

And when the sun joins the moon,
When teardrops rain becomes,
When the ocean floods the skies.

Then I’ll be with thee…

***

Bright blade, mirror of stars.
A trusty friend; you are my last one.
Don’t let me down.

Now at the end,
A selfish child all they will say
But no more. Can’t stand the pain.

Never knew of joy.
Never lived the life of a child.
But you would always be there.

I jut wish that you would return
Even for a moment, to hold my hand.
To watch the sun set, for once, together.

Too late now…scarlet drops,
They mix with the ocean,
Yet another small stream.

I should have been used to the pain
But the first cut always hurts;
No matter how many times before.

I just wish you were there
The first time I changed.
I did it for you.

Bright blade, mirror of stars.
A trusty friend; you are my last one.
Don’t let me down;

Not now, at the end of all things.

***

The pounding sea calls me to you.
Alas, my love, don’t waste your blood…
Please, not like this!

Can the dead men cry?
Can they feel, or die again?
How can I watch him waste his life?

How can you do this to me?
How could I leave you alone?
Without admitting my love for you.

I cry your name
But where could I find the power?
Don’t go, my prince.

Your hot blood spills to the sand.
I can almost touch it,
I can almost see your tear-stricken face.

And through my condemned mirror,
I can almost taste your pain…
No!! I can’t let you go!

The pounding sea calls me to you.
Alas, my love, don’t waste your blood…
Please, don’t you fall, not like this!

***

Will you hate me, my heart?
Will you be waiting for me,
At the end of the winter?

The sound of the waves is so loud.
Afraid to shut my eyes, I see
My own blood, mingled with my tears.

And at the edge for my sanity,
I look out for you, beloved spirit.
Give me a sign that you care!

I will take this last trip,
And I’ll regret no more…
If only you are there for me.

My strength leaves me,
And numb, I fell to my knees.
I can almost feel your warmth.

Embracing me, calling my name…
Oh, Gods! Have you returned?
Master.

Will you hate me, my heart?
Will you be waiting for me,
At the end of the winter?

***

Black skies…He’s fallen,
Pouring red rivulets,
Wasting away – candle to the winds.

I can’t let it happen. I won’t!
Enough I had to watch, powerless.
Pain and sorrow fuel my range.

And scream your name I do,
While long forgotten tears
Find their way to my eyes.

The mirror cracks,
Grey veil is pulled.
And then the shadows scatter away.

Hold on for me, my love.
I won’t let you go,
Without a battle.

I rush for you – you know I’m there.
You call me master.
Never, never had I been that.

You always were my lord.
Don’t drift away, I plead you,
Whispering soft words to you.

While I seal your deep wounds,
Your eyes won’t leave my face.
I now know how you’ve felt.

Black skies…He’s fallen,
Pouring red rivulets,
Wasting away – candle to the winds.

***

My angel is now here.
Denied his sleep for me.
He let me see through him.

I know now how he’s felt,
But I won’t hurt you like that.
I fight to stay alive, for you.

I know now, and I will try,
To do what you failed.
I’ll take revenge for you.

Before I join you,
I look to their happiness.
I will live to destroy them.

If that’s your wish, I will
Just stay here a bit longer.
Just to draw power, from your warmth.

No words were spoken,
No need for hollow, meaningless sounds.
We both know now.

You pull me on your lap,
Like when you would tell me tales,
When I was still a child.

The clouds have melted.
The sea is calm now.
A glorious sun sets,

Just behind the mountains.
Just what I had wished for,
What we had wished for.

And as the last rays disappear,
You place the softest of the kiss on my lips
And then you are gone.

A single tear lingers on my cheek.
The last I spent, for there is
No more sorrow inside.

Just a mellow sadness,
For promises that won’t be fulfilled,
But you will wait.

And I have an errand to finish.
I won’t let you down again.
You gave me another chance.

This time I’ll use it.
As the velvet of the darkness covers day,
And content, I fly back home.

For my angel is now here.
Denied his sleep for me.
He let me see through him.

And now I know,
That I will live,
For him.

In my dreams, there you belong,
In all the starry nights, the moon you were.
And if I cry for you, you’ll be back.

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