Please tell me I’m not dreaming. I don’t want to be left alone. I hope you’re still here. If not, I have no place to go. I want you to guide me, bring me through these twists and turns. Where we can be together once more. Just lay your head on my chest, so I know that you’re not just an illusion. If you’re here, I can finally sleep at night, but not until then.
Don’t listen to their words, our life is not a crime. The rules aren’t set by them, they don’t control us. Even if they want to bring us apart, they’ll always fail, just as long as you stay here with me.
Goten, I’m sorry for what I said to you. You are definitely in control of your own life, I can’t take that fact away. I only did this to keep us together, but now I realize my lie would only bring us apart. I’m sorry if I ever made you cry, I’m sorry if I hurt you deeply, but this is just the one thing that could tear you away from me. And I don’t want it to end like this. I hope you can understand why I did it.
Goten, I miss you too. We’ve been apart for too long. I want to come to you, I don’t want to make you wait anymore. But I’m scared. I’m scared of my family, scared of your family. I’m scared of you. I don’t know what will happen if I see you again. I’m scared that I might hurt you. Why can’t I get through this? Why don’t I have any balls. I’m being such a pussy right now, but I still want to see you again.
Why don’t we just run away together? I called you the other day, but you were out. I wonder if you ever got my message. Goten, I am sorry, words cannot express how hurt I am about this. Maybe if I could talk to you in person then I’d be able to show you. I don’t want it to end like this either, we just need to talk this through. And I know we can. I know we can work out anything together, I know we can do it together. We can ditch all of these assholes and just run away from them, live on our own. They’ll never stop us this way.
Goten, I fucked up, I know I did. But this was the first time something like this has happened. Give me another chance, I know I can make it up. But we have to work together on this, or we’ll be no where. I just want to make it right because I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
Goten, I just wanted to tell you.
I’m sorry.
